Chapter 108

*CORA* No matter how much Tristan had hurt me, I felt that it was temporary. Finally, after being hurt again and again,I found that I was wrong. The man who loved you won't intentionally hurt you even once, and the man who didn't love you would hurt you again and again. This time,I finally decided to make up my mind. I didn't know how many chances I had given to Tristan. In these repeated entanglement,Tristan was always being domineering and belittled me with his old tricks. Looking up at James, who was reading quietly next to me, I thought, 'Life can be fruitless sometimes. Who says that we must get married and have children, and who says that we must achieve success and win recognition? Standing aloof from worldly success like James is also a kind of positive attitude towards life'. After thinking twice,I made up my mind. This time, even if just for protecting my self-esteem, I decided to go against everyone's expectations. I won’t give Tristan a second chance even if it would disappoint Lady Jane. Otherwise, he would really be a dispensable person who came and went at any time I was summoned. What was too easy to get would often not be cherished. I looked out of the window blankly. It was cold outside. There was a layer of frost on the outside of the window. It was almost the season when the breath turned into mist. This winter seemed to be destined to be unusual. If divorce was the same as being broken up in love, then I had already gone through the most difficult initial stage. No matter how much one loved the sea, he wouldn't jump into the sea; no matter how much one loved the sunshine, he wouldn't be exposed to the sunshine all the time. Everything had its limits. This trip finally made me understand my real thought. If a person didn't even hate another, then he must be extremely disappointed. Obviously, I felt that my resentment towards Tristan was fading away little by little. What I felt now was indifference. ************** *TRISTAN* When I walked out of Lady Jane’s bedroom upstairs, I glanced downstairs. Now I could almost see the location of Cora at a glance. Seeing that she lazily leaned against the sofa with the hand warmer in her arms, I felt warm in my heart. Luckily,Cora was with me today. It seemed that I had experienced something much longer than my life in such a short time. We always don't know how to understand others, so they only love a few people in their lives. Similarly, true friend was also rare. We may have many friends, but few of them could be cherished as soul mates. I sighed.I haven’t had such a deep conversation with my Grandma for a long time, as if we had only talked for a few times in our lives. I suddenly realized something about the meaning of life. In the past, I always wanted to pursue success and power, but now, I just wanted to protect and love the genuine people around me. I slowly walked down the ivory stairs. My leather shoes stepped on the stairs, hardly making any sound. When I came close to Cora,her beautiful face captivated me as always. She was asleep.Her eyelashes were so long that they casted shadow below her eyes. I wanted to cover her with a blanket on the sofa. **************************** James observed the two secretly through his glasses. At this moment,Cora opened her eyes. Tristan’s hand froze in the air and then fell down again. Without saying anything,Cora looked indifferent. In the past, she was cheated by the man standing before her just because she was too soft-hearted and too emotional. Now, she wouldn't make the same mistake. In order to achieve her goal, she had to set firm boundaries. She didn't want to be a fool again.Tristan’s hand was a little stiff. He didn't know if it was because of the cold weather or because of his embarrassment that he didn't withdraw his hand for a moment. Time seemed to be frozen. Squinting slightly, Cora looked at Tristan in front of her.His face was still the same as before. He was still him, nothing had ever changed. "Don't you want to sit down?" Feeling embarrassed,Tristan sat next to her and regained his composure. He always had a good self-control when dealing with other people. Even if he was such an offensive person in nature, he could always manage to make himself welcomed by the others. The man in front of her could always easily arouse her heart and make her lose control of her emotions. “Cora, I have something to discuss with you. Come out with me." There was a hint of disappointment in her eyes. Finally, they had to expose everything in sunshine. It was the first time that Tristan had called her so seriously. Perhaps he wanted them to get married again because of Lady Jane. With a mocking smile,Cora replied, "Okay." She stood up and slowly walked outside with him. It was noon, but the weather outside was not getting better. It didn't matter anyway. What really mattered was whether the two of them could reach an agreement. Tristan’s slender legs drew a nice range in the air as he walked, followed closely by Cora. James shook his head and looked at the two people who were walking far away. Such a talented man and a beautiful woman should be the perfect match, not the incompatible foes. If Tristan couldn't seize the opportunity, he might follow the old path of James. The air conditioner in the room had already been turned off. Too much exposure to the air conditioner made him sick. The cold air enveloped James soon. James continued to read the book in his hand. The flickering light of the furnace next to him shone on his face from time to time. He enjoyed the warmth from the furnace in such days at the end of autumn and the beginning of winter. When he looked up again, the two young folks had disappeared. Through the French window, he could clearly see that the two had walked outside. Outside was an open courtyard. If they went further, they would see several acres of forest with asphalt road. Tristan walked very slowly. He turned around and asked with concern, "Are you feeling cold?" Shaking her head, Cora subconsciously held the hand warmer tighter. What could she do even if she was cold? She had to bear it anyway. Tristan stopped talking about it and turned to look at the tree. "Grandma told me a lot just now. Her illness is hopeless.There’s nothing much that can be done and she doesn’t want to try anything." There was a hint of bitterness in Tristan’s voice. Even though he was a cold man in nature, he couldn't pretend that it was none of his business at this time. Cora didn't know what to say, so she just kept silent. Tristan took a look at Cora standing beside. He didn't want Cora to feel that he was forcing her so he said softly, "She has a wish.She wants us to remarry. I'm fine with it. I just want her to be happy." The chill in Cora’s heart spread all over her body. By saying "I'm fine with it", this man kicked the problem to her. She was unwilling remarry him, but if she didn't agree to remarry him, she would be regarded as a heartless person . This was how she always lived for others. Cora stopped, and Tristan also stopped after taking two steps ahead. Looking at the man in front of her in disbelief, she asked, "Tristan, have you ever considered my happiness? Am I just a feelingless toy that you can play with?" Like a hedgehog pricking up its own spines, Cora could stab Tristan at any time. Disappointment flashed through Tristan’s eyes. He didn't expect that Cora refused to remarry him so firmly. He had wanted to use her kind her into making her marry him again. He had tried all means to make her forgive him,but she wouldn’t believe a single word from him. So he thought that if they remarried,he could have the opportunity to show her how much he loves her now. But she still won’t give him another chance. Did she not feel a thing for him anymore?