CHAPTER 5

It's been five days since I went home to mama's house and those days we really made the most of my son. After he went to school, we went for a walk in the park, in the mall, watched a movie and sometimes we played in his grandmother's garden. It's Saturday and we're in the kitchen, because he requested that he want to eat graham balls. He likes it especially when I am the one who made it. Just like his father. I can't help but think of Gabe, especially when I face my son. Every time I stare at him, it is as if I am also staring at Gabe. I think I'm going crazy. I closed my eyes but I could still see Gabe's face. There he is, my man. Gabin del Fierro. He sat in the bleachers while I practiced cheer dance at our school. We've been dating for over six months now. I was 17 and he is already 22. He was my first boyfriend. My first love. We met on an extraordinary occasion. I was walking from school, it was a bit dark because the sun was setting down when suddenly someone grabbed my bag. I was shouting and he suddenly came and chased the snatcher. He chased the thief and I could see how he beat the man. I just stared at his every move. I have not yet fully seen his face but I know he has a beautiful and handsome body. We took the snatcher to the nearest precinct and filed a complaint. But I did not expect what the thief said. The man who helped me was an accomplice of this thief! I can't believe him! But instead of turning off, I think I admire him even more. He said he did it so I could notice him. Since then he has never left my mind. He seems to be the same to me. Also from that day a new page of my life was formed. I approached him after our practice. I smiled at him, he really looks good on his white V neck t shirt. "Hey sexy!" I blushed. "Baby, why are you here so early?" I asked, because he arrived earlier than he usually did here at school to pick me up. "I miss my very beautiful, very sexy and very talented girlfriend .." I lightly punched his chest while laughing, "You 're really corny!" "Hey, it's not corny. That's true. Wait, do I have a kiss?" He said and pouted his lips. I looked around. "There's alot of people. It's embarrassing." "Are you ashamed of me?" He seemed to be hurting with his question. "No! Never!" "Then kiss me." "Alright!" I tiptoe and gave him a quick kiss on his lips. "Is that okay?" A smile spread across his lips. "Good enough to thrill me." Our relationship grew even stronger in the months that followed. But just like with television series, everything has an end. And Gabe and I 's ending is not a happy ending. One day Katherine, my friend, approached me. "I saw your boyfriend yesterday. At a bar." Her introduction. "I know. He told me he was going to his friend's newly opened bar." I answered her. "And you know he's with someone?" "Yep. He's with his friends, Katherine." "So you let him go with a woman?" "What? Woman? W-who?" I furrowed. I don't want to admit it but I'm getting nervous. "I don't know her name, eh..wait I will show you something." she took her cellphone out of her pocket. And then played a video. It was a bit dark but I could see Gabe dancing with a woman. I can't see the woman's face in the video. After a while they kissed. My knees felt weak. Katherine put her cellphone back in her pocket. "I think your boyfriend is cheating on you, Jean. I was there and I could see them with my two bare eyes. And they came out of that bar at the same time. I haven't followed them but we don't know what happened after that. " I bit my lower lip and was managed not to cry but I failed. I know Gabe wouldn't do that to me. He wouldn't cheat on me. I know he loves me, maybe he has a reason why he did that. I can't trust Katherine, I know she has a secret feelings to my boyfriend. I called Gabe to had a snack outside. "What happened last night?" I asked as we sat at the second table. Please tell about the girl you kissed. "Drink, talk then go home." He replied without looking at me, he was busy eating ice cream. "Who are you with?" This time he looked up, "Caleb, Julius, Paul .." I nodded. I feel like I want to believe Katherine. Because if Gabe didn't really do anything wrong he should have said what happened last night! "I wish you were there though." he said. I want to swear! But I prefer to keep quiet. "It's okay. You know, I don't like crowded places. Also .. remember Mike? Your cousin's friend? I just knew that one of my classmates was his sister." Last night we did a thesis at Fionna's house, my Psychology classmate and I found out that Mike was his brother. I met Mike at Gabe's cousin's party. "He's very sensible. He even helped us with the difficult parts of our thesis. He's so adorable and kind." I smiled as I told the story. He let go of the spoon he was holding and then looked at me lazily. "Is that just Mike we're going to talk about all day?" "Sorry .." "Maybe you got a crush on that guy?" He asked irritably. "Just a crush," He did not answer but the annoyance and jealousy was obvious on his face. That's just the beginning, Gabin. I really meant to talk about Mike. I know he hates it every time I mention another man's name. "I have a headache, Jeanette. I'm going home." "K" One week. Gabe did not talked to me for a whole week after that scene. I miss him so much. Am I over reacting to what I have said? But he did worse ah! And he kept it a secret from me. "Mike, I miss him. We haven't seen each other for a week. He might have traded me for someone else!" I'm with Mike now at the Starbucks. For most of the week that Gabe did not make talked to me, Mike was with me. I feel comfortable with him, not only because he is kind and happy to be with but I found out that we he is a gay. Gosh, I couldn't believe I had a crush on a bisexual. "Gaga, your boyfriend loves you. I know Gabin, he doesn't last with a woman for a week. But it took you eight months. And the fact that nothing has happened to you and him is really unbelievable! I know him as a fuckboy. " "Maybe because he thinks I'm not sexy ... you know .." He kicked me. "You're beautiful, be confident! But in case you see him with someone else, alas! Slap that idiot then break up with him!" That same day we decided to go to Gabe at his friend's bar. Mike accompanied me to enter, because minors were not allowed. I saw him immediately. I would have approached him but I stopped because a woman approached him. And first, I did not recognize the woman but once the neon lights focused on them I confirmed who the woman was approching him. Is that why it doesn't want to see me because he already have someone else ?! Shit! Here I am missing you so much then you are having fun with that woman! When the woman saw me she suddenly hooked Gabin's neck to kiss it. I almost fell for what I witnessed. Worst is, Gabe retaliated with that kiss! Even though I was weak and in tears, I walked closer to them. I pulled Gabin's arm. At first he was shocked to see me but that was immediately replaced by a mocking smile. I wiped my wet face and then slapped him. I made sure it was strong. Everyone gasped. "How dare you!" I hissed. I shudder with anger. "What?" He asked sarcastically. "You mad? Huh? Jeanette, we're fair ..." "What are you saying?" "'Don't be innocent .. I already knew everything. Well, it's a tie cos honestly, I am fucking other girls while we are still dating." I couldn't help but slap him again. That is stronger. "Jean, it's enough." Mike. "Oh dude, there you are, maybe it's better to take your woman home." Gabe said and then walked away. I bit my lower lip. My vision is also blurring. My tears kept flowing. My chest tightens. Mike pulled me out of the bar but before we could finally get out I first confronted Gabe's new woman and also gave her a loud slap. "Fuck you, Katherine! Fuck you!" "Mom? Why are you crying?" I heard my son call so my mind returned to reality. "N-no. Mommy isn't crying, baby..I'm just happy," My reason. I did not realize that I was crying while remembering the past. "Graham balls are almost ready. Let's put them inside the refrigerator." As we put the graham balls we made in the refrigerator my cellphone rang. It was Mike. "Mike?" "Hell, Jean! A letter has arrived for you!" He answered in shock. Fear gripped me. "Your ex has already filed a lawsuit!" Damn.