CHAPTER 1

"Is it Mike ?!" I was taken aback on Gabin's shout. I feel a mixture of shock, fear and anger now which is why I am unable to speak. I also hold my breath. "What? How good is he in bed and did you manage to betrayed me for that idiot ?!" His eyes were glazed and red. In anger, I only answered him with a loud slap as tears welled up in my eyes. He just mockingly laughed after touching the cheek where I slapped him. "W-who told you those things?" My voice was weak and raspy. "Does it matter, Jean?" He stepped closer to me, I backed away. My throat is dry with various emotions. "I am going home." I once pushed him but he hardly gripped my wrist. I was able to hold on to the tightness of his grip but he did not move. He pulled me closer to him and I immediately smelled the alcohol on his breath. "You're drunk, Gabe. Let's talk when you're thinking well." "No!" I was shocked when he shouted again. "You're just staying here. You're just here until I say nothing! You're just here as long as I want!" He violently grabbed my nape then he started to kiss me on my cheek until he reaches for my lips. At first, he was gentle until he became aggressive. He touched every inch of my body, even my private parts. Oh god, this is not good. I have to escape. I used all of my strength to push Gabin but I just kept failing. He is stronger and taller than me. He reached for my arm and threw me on his messy bed. I struggled as my tears continued to flow. "Gabe... plea-se don't do this..." His dark eyes darkened even more. I backed away and was scared. He smirked like a devil. In the almost one year I have known him I thought I have know him completely but now I am damn scared of him. This is not him! Or maybe this is really the real Gabin? "'Don't do this? I hope you thought of that before you cheated on me!" He shouted again and kissed me violently on the lips. My lips almost bleed. I push him hard. I was hurt by the way he kissed me. He's kissing and biting my lips like a hungry beast. He held my two hands above my head, his other hand is on my jaw. I was in the middle of his two legs. I'm trapped. I tried to shout even though I knew no one else could hear me inside his unit. But I gave in when I was completely tired. He kissed every inch of my body in a disgusted way. I never thought that the only man I could trust would be the man who would destroy me. In an instant he completely undressed me. I tried to hide my body from him but he immediately pulled my hands and raised them again. "How many have tasted your dirty body ?!" He asked while trailing his one finger from my neck down to my chest, encircling my both temple and so on, until he reached for my fold. He forcefully opened my legs. I cried in pain, I writhed in excruciating pain as in a flash he inserted his finger there. "How many ?!" He shouted again. I cried even more. When I did not answer again he added a finger inside and you violently moved. "P-pleeasse. That's enough," I whispered almost in the middle of my sobs. He laughed. "Eight months, Jean! I have waited for eight fucking months! I endured and respected you because I love you! But that love !!" He grabbed my waist and turned me around, so now I'm facing the bed, he pinned my head on the bed sheet and then he lifted my waist to my knees. He hit my butt so hard and said again, "Can't you give it to me because you already gave it to someone else, huh ?!" "N-noo .. please, Gabe .." I begged. "Fuck you! Oh yeah. I'm going to fuck you, slut!" He entered me. Hard. I cried in pain. I feel like something has torn inside me. I continued to cry while he continued to move. He was not shaken. He looks like a monster. This is not the Gabin I met, he is not the Gabin I loved. I let him do what he wanted. Over and over again. I let him abuse me, my body. I let him to insult me, to dishonor. I let him to vilified me.