#Chapter 188 - Jane Considers a Change

Jane As I consider Devon’s question, I’m inundated with memories of Eric. Unlike Devon, I’d always known Eric wanted to be more than just friends, and I’d considered dating him more than once. I thought he would be a safe partner because he’d never be able to hurt me the way Ethan did, and though I later learned the basis of our friendship was I lie, ultimately I’d been right. I was angry about his betrayal and angry at myself for trusting him, but it didn’t break my heart. I don’t want to give Ethan the power to influence my decisions for the rest of my life, but it’s hard not feel wary of romance after everything I’ve been through with him. “I hate to say it Devon, but I don’t think I see romance in my future at all. With anyone.” I finally reply, feeling ashamed of my own cowardice, yet also completely trapped by it. “Oh Jane, don’t say that.” Devon replies, sounding truly pained by the idea. Though I don’t think his pain is for his own dashed hopes, but to hear me speaking